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19 March 2012 @ 20:44
"I Am The Excuse You Give When You Cannot Follow The Rules"  
Gah I really should stay on top of this and post more promptly.

+ So I made my stage debut as Tahlullah Manhattan at the Secrets show on 4th March. It was an absolute blast! I was Head Stage Maid too so I was a part of the action all night. I got my maid's dress that Sian made me off her. It's gorgeous! Black with red polka dot and made to every inch of my body. I love it!

The 'dressing room' was absolutely freezing which didn't help my nerves too much. I was shivering like crazy. I talked to Warren Peace and Duke O'Growl for a bit before we all kicked off the show. They are lovely guys. Warren loved my name and Duke gave me his coat to snuggle under until it was time for me to take to the stage. When the show started my nerves went away because Duke and Warren were making me laugh and woop so much when they went on stage. Duke was dressed like that guy from 'An Officer and a Gentleman' and had to carry Warren on stage, who is insanely tall to start with and has 5 inch heels on. I just loved watching them from my crack in the dressing room door. Then something else happened that helped ease my nerves: Amber was right in front of the door, saw me and waved. Having a familiar face being one of the first things I saw when I came out helped me so much more than I ever thought possible. I loved performing. It was fun and felt wonderful. Here's a video of my performance:

I have another show booked in London on 24th April so I'm looking forward to that! Feel free to add Tahlullah on Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/tahlullahmanhattan

+ For past couple of weeks I've just been chilling out, relaxing after this busy period. Now I'm starting to go stir crazy. The only sewing I have left to do is the lining on my Poison Ivy shirt and it's a tedious task at best. Today I've felt utterly restless. So I've decided that I need to get my arse in gear. I'm so fucking lazy and I'm never gonna get anywhere if I carry on. I'm gonna push myself to write a lot, to put more effort into uni and generally be more productive. I've wasted so much time these past 2 years. I need to stop feeling sorry for myself and make something happen!

+ I'm gutted to be missing MCM Birmingham Expo at the end of March due to being skint. They have 4 Walking Dead guests! I'm so gutted. Plus it would have been nice to see everyone. The main con season is going to be so packed and brief this year. I think that's another thing that is getting me down. Having everything I'm looking forward to being so far away.

+ I'm STILL looking for a job. I'm down to the last scraps of my loan again and it's ridiculous. I'm sick of living like this. I want a job. I want to be earning. I want my fucking £50 a month bus pass to be more worthwhile! I've been pushing CVs around whenever something pops up in Frenchgate but it's still a long shot as no one wants to employ a girl who's only experience is in a charity shop. I hate it. I feel like I'm never going to get anywhere. What if I leave uni without any work experience? What the fuck do I do then?

+ My main fandom love right now is Walking Dead and Boondock Saints, and to another degree Norman Reedus. Walking Dead has been fucking stellar and I finally watched the first Boondock Saints the other week. I saw the second one a couple of months ago when I bought it on DVD and loved it. I just wish I had seen it when Sean Partick Flanery came over here for EMS! Now I need him to come back to sign that and Devil's Carnival.

+ Speaking of The Devil's Carnival! The trailer was unveiled on Saturday and I AM IN LOVE! I am so excited for this and I hope with all my might that Darren Lynn Bousman and co make it over to the UK for the tour.

If you're in the UK and want them to come over on tour then please like this page on Facebook. The creators are keeping an eye on it: http://www.facebook.com/pages/We-Want-The-Devils-Carnival-On-An-International-Tour/370248736330162

+ Btw feel free to follow me on Tumblr: http://jemzamia.tumblr.com/